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screen cap meme: sj+ faceless

Sun, 19 May 2013 09:02:01 -0400

screen cap meme : sj+ faceless

Chin up, buttercup.

Sun, 19 May 2013 01:02:00 -0400

Preston,

I feel guilty because I can’t reach out to you. I want to give you a hug and pet your hair or something idk. Or like put my hands on your cheeks and look in your eyes and tell you everything is going to be okay. But I can’t. And it makes me so frustrated. I really, genuinely, want to help you so much because quicksand is the fucking worst.

Preston, can I say your name a million times? Because that’s all I can do. Preston, pull through. Walk right through. Leap over. Fly. Something. Idk. You can’t let go, You honestly can’t let go. If you can’t do it for yourself, do it for someone else. Do it for her. The lucky girl. Do it for him. The thai prince. Someone. Do it for someone. Don’t give up yet. Please don’t. I’m begging you to not drag yourself over to that abyss, because then, when I call out to you, you won’t be there to answer anymore. Because then, when the people who love you call out to you, you won’t be there anymore. And that would tear their hearts apart. So much.

Do I sound paranoid? I probably do. Yeah. I get anxiety attacks now. I didn’t a long time ago. Because there was a time when… I could help people and… they got better. And they did well. And they didn’t have any of those depressing thoughts anymore.

And then I met a boy. It was so hard and difficult to look at him and not feel the heavy chains. It was so hard to not feel the sinking burden of the helplessness, the way he looked so vulnerably tired. Physically and mentally. It was hard to not look at him and not want to cry. And I tried to help him and he got better. I thought he got better. He showed signs. He told me. We convinced each other- I told him so many stories, I sang him so many songs. He told me his happy memories. And he started to smile again. He was getting better. He was getting better. He was getting better. I thought he was getting better. I can’t… keep saying that anymore. Preston. I can’t say that anymore. I can’t… His life was cut short. He gave up. He freAKING GAVE UP.

I can never ever… forgive myself for that. When I think of suicide, I remember him. I remember everything. Sometimes when I dream, I dream of him. When someone tells me they feel depressed and they can’t get through the crap anymore, I remember him. And because of this, you can’t give up. I can’t let you become a fleeting memory that surfaces from the water just because certain things get brought up. I just can’t.

Preston. I want to keep saying your name. And I want to you to be there to hear it. Just keep swimming. Keep going. Pull through. You can do it. I know you can. You made it this far, you can go further. And you’re not alone; you’re NEVER alone. There are people cheering for you on the sidelines, people who l o v e you. They love you Preston. They love youuuu. I can’t stress that enough because sometimes you forget. But there are people who want to help you, people who want to see you do well, people who want to see you smile.

Let the fucking rain come. If you need an umbrella, let me lend you one. ♥

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Sat, 18 May 2013 17:15:13 -0400

color meme; black and white↳ eunhyuk

Fri, 17 May 2013 20:31:36 -0400

color meme; black and white
↳ eunhyuk

rollingday: 3/100 Pictures of Lee Sungmin

Fri, 17 May 2013 09:55:44 -0400

rollingday:

3/100 Pictures of Lee Sungmin

Werewolves. This is how I picture their wolf form.

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:06:31 -0400

Werewolves. This is how I picture their wolf form.

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Thu, 16 May 2013 18:02:08 -0400

hi sweetheart.

Thu, 16 May 2013 00:05:13 -0400

I’m going to this extent for you because I’m peculiar and you probably wouldn’t care anyway…

And on the basis that I don’t know much about you ~~at all~~, this will probably sound like some random pep talk… but I definitely wrote this while thinking of you ♥

I hope this speaks to you in some way…

I didn’t think that I was anything special when the guy I had a crush for 2 years rejected me.

I didn’t think I was anything special when I flunked a class.

I didn’t think I was anything special when my parents threatened to disown me.

Or when my grandmother told me she didn’t want me in her life anymore, only to die a week after she said that.

Or when I thought about committing suicide. Multiple times.

so yeah. not anything special.

but sweetheart…

I don’t know anything about you. I don’t know why you don’t think you’re special. Maybe I’m overreacting ~~(I am but it’s because I care)~~. But I honestly feel the need to emphasize that you can’t think like that. I know that what I say won’t do anything, because ultimately, it’s your decision on how you look at yourself.

I know I suck at a lot of things and a lot of people don’t want me in their lives. But at least I can smile. I can write. and walk. and talk. and blink.

and so can you.

and that’s special.

and I’m so sure there’s so much more to you. You can make gifs. You have friends. And followers. People that respect you. And love you. You can defend Nichkhun and 2pm. But, if you can’t do any of those things I listed, or anything else (like getting A’s or winning a nobel prize or meeting Nichkhun, whatever it may be) don’t deprecate yourself.

even if you don’t think so yourself,
you’re gorgeous and beautiful and attractive and sweet
and lusciously handsome and charming and cute and

Preston,
You are special.
Really really special.

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Wed, 15 May 2013 21:37:23 -0400

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Wed, 15 May 2013 20:08:49 -0400

screencap meme: kyuhyun + up close and personal requested by...

Wed, 15 May 2013 16:11:58 -0400

screencap meme: kyuhyun + up close and personal requested by mini-macchiato

Kyuhyun & Eunhyuk SPAO

Wed, 15 May 2013 09:49:11 -0400

Kyuhyun & Eunhyuk SPAO

lee fucking hyukjae.

Wed, 15 May 2013 09:11:22 -0400

lee fucking hyukjae.

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Wed, 15 May 2013 09:11:00 -0400

Kyuhyun and his suit

Wed, 15 May 2013 09:10:30 -0400

Kyuhyun and his suit

cr: p12ang

Tue, 14 May 2013 21:05:02 -0400

cr: p12ang

chorgasm: color meme: kyuhyun + sky blue

Tue, 14 May 2013 21:04:53 -0400

chorgasm:

color meme: kyuhyun + sky blue

color meme: blue → Cho Kyuhyun

Tue, 14 May 2013 21:03:14 -0400

color meme: blue → Cho Kyuhyun

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Tue, 14 May 2013 21:00:51 -0400

kyuclam: @AllRiseSilver: I am in Japan “Koko wa nihondesu”...

Tue, 14 May 2013 18:40:38 -0400

kyuclam:

@AllRiseSilver: I am in Japan

“Koko wa nihondesu” omg.